Ok, so suddenly, February is almost done and I haven't made an update. That's how busy I've been with work, and it's also because we spent about a week celebrating the #KMWeddingWeek, aka the super glamorous wedding of Griffin's ninang Karen.
So, what's been happening? I'm still really busy at work, most of the time coming home 7:30 or even 8pm. This is a big deal, knowing I just live behind the office. Hay. I'm finding it tough, to be honest, balancing this work-home dynamic, especially when I feel I'm torn between spending time with Dennis and spending time with Griffin when I do get home. I try to give them equal time, or at least give Dennis some time, but most days it's hard. I have to try harder.
What else, oh Gboy has grown so much more- he has a pedia appointment tomorrow so we will know his actual weight, but for sure he gained. My arms feel much more strained now, and that's always an indication that he packed on some more weight. As it is, I think he already outweighs Fuji. Haha! My growing boy! He also has 5 teeth out already (2 of them crowning and 1 just started to show itself a bit, on top of the 2 that are already fully out). And as for breastfeeding, I am happy and proud to say I'm still at it-- the pumping during the day, at least. This is quite a feat, especially since Griffin has appeared to wean himself off direct feeding during the day, when he is active and up and about. He prefers to play and look around rather than feed off me and just stare at my chest. Haha! This has meant pumping everywhere I go, even during weekends and, yes, even at random places like malls. It has to be done; otherwise, I will lose my milk and will fail at my goal of lasting until the 1 year mark.
I also gotta admit that I felt quite a degree of sadness (and Dennis knows this) when Griffin decided not to directly feed from Mommy during the day anymore. I felt this sadness over losing our special bonding moments of just him and me, and it was a really strong feeling. Even if he still feeds at night when he is sleepy, it's different. I love love love breastfeeding him, and feeling that he gets his nutrition straight from me. Also, because I leave him with his yaya most of the time, it feels good to have a special power that Yaya can never have. Haha! Oh well. I got over it after some time, but when I was right in the middle of the emotion, the sadness overwhelmed me and I even cried. Hehe.
Dennis and I also went to Boracay without Griffin, to attend the wedding week, as I mentioned. It was good to have that private time with Dennis again, although I missed Griffin a lot. Which is why I guess we didn't hesitate to book another Boracay trip in May when Gboy turns 1. :)
That's pretty much it. Will try to update more often, perhaps when I'm in meetings that could have just been a long email :p
