Some of my friends said this at the top of the year, especially in the context of 2010 being a action-packed, exciting year for all of us, peppered with memories of weddings and babies. I couldn’t relate to this feeling at first, since we had our Europe trip (of the decade!) in the pipeline during that period. I was too busy looking up itineraries, comparing hotels, preparing flight schedules, etc, to feel that there’s not much to look forward to. My heart was so full of excitement and happy anticipation. Now that that has peaked and we’re back to regular life, I can’t help but agree with the statement now. Especially given the recent work challenges, which either pull me to the direction of feeling work is so humdrum, or haul me back to the other direction of feeling overwhelmed and tired by this new assignment. Granted, the resurrection of my teaching career does put an exclamation point to my weekly sched, and my MBA does keep me extra busy, but I don’t know, I feel like something is off. Or, better said, something seems dissatisfying. I can’t quite pinpoint what it is exactly. All I know is what it is NOT about – I’m 100% happy with my marriage and 100% happy with my personal and student-related lives. I have a sneaking suspicion it’s about work.. and about my impatience with the next stage in life.
There's no solid point to this post. I just wanted to jot down this feeling, in hopes of untangling the mixed emotions and finding the center of it all. I'll let you know if it worked...
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