So we're here today at Kato, for the first step of the process, which is a Day-2 blood draw to see my hormone levels and an ultrasound to get baseline stats of my uterine lining. What makes Kato different from other fertility practices is they use a protocol in the administration and management of IVF, which means that they leave less things to chance than conventional practice. This doesn't mean they guarantee success but I guess the comfort is that you know your procedure is less dependent on the actual practitioner assigned to that particular procedure on a certain day, but more on the accomplishment of each step of a carefully designed protocol that took years in Japan to come up with. So the first of those steps is to come in the day after you get your period. Hence we're here today.
I had a fitful sleep last night imagining many scenarios, including both positive and negative outcomes. I guess thinking of the possibility of failing, then thinking of the next steps to take after that, is less about being pessimistic or not being positive enough... And more about self-preservation. Only those going through infertility know what this feels like - that self-defense mechanism inside you that comes from going through more heartbreaks and more "no"s than you thought you would need to. While you want a positive result, more than anything else in the world, you also know you need to be able to move on from failure. Because giving up is not an option.
So here we are. Pray for us. Pray for a smooth road here in Kato and for a successful outcome. Please.
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