Dear Griffin,

You're officially 30 weeks and 1 day in Mommy's tummy, my love. I've felt you become stronger and bigger just through feeling your kicks and tumbles - once as soft as a feather and now powerful enough to make my clothes move and to make me catch my breath. I love every single minute of knowing I'm the only one in the world right now who knows your every move. 

We've started getting ready for your arrival. AhMa got you your bedside crib already and Guama got you a white noise machine that will hopefully help you go to sleep. Ahchiak will give you the stroller and car seat that Achi Fuji used. And your baby showers are being planned already too - you'll realize when you're bigger just how much fun it is to receive and open gifts. For now, your only job is to grow healthily and steadily and to please reach fullterm. 

That's it. That's really all Mommy wants for you- to be as healthy as possible. I know your environment may not be the most optimum, Griffin, because Mommy's uterus space is smaller than others and my blood may clot faster than other moms'. But hopefully you won't feel the difference much and the interventions that our doctors have done and will do end up being enough. These daily injections and all these tests are nothing- I can get through them all and more, for you. So please be healthy. 

Mommy can't wait to meet you, my love. Hopefully not before the next 7 weeks and even more hopefully in 10 weeks' time. This means you would've gotten as big as possible and have had enough time to mature your lungs. 

In the meantime, just keep growing. And keep moving. Kick, tumble, elbow... Whatever you like. Mommy doesn't mind. In fact, I love it. I often stop what I'm doing when you make those big jabs, because I want to savor your every single move. Even at just under 3 lbs., you're already the biggest force in Mommy's life and you already occupy the biggest space in my heart. Can I tell you a secret? Sometimes I get scared I just might love you so much more than I love your Daddy. Not because I don't love him enough. But because I love you at depths I never knew existed, even for your Dad who already really is the original love of my life. I literally think of you every minute of every day, and I haven't even met you yet! Isn't that amazing?

I think you're sleeping now as I haven't felt movement for a while. Sleep tight, my little big love. And grow some more. Mommy loves you.