A part of me was initially overwhelmed by the thought of doing it all again. But with courage shared by my husband, I realized that to stop would be an even scarier proposition.
So today will be the baseline blood work and ultrasound again, to measure readiness of my system for a fresh cycle. Wish us luck!
From what I understood during our initial briefing, if I go for a medicated cycle, we'll do egg retrieval and fertilization on month 1 and do embryo transfer on month 2. This timeline should work out vis-a-vis the immunological workup I'm doing on the side. The results should be out by then, before the embryo transfer.
I know some people might find all this a bit too much to handle. Believe me, I feel that way sometimes too. But walking through this journey inevitably involves handling multiple considerations all at once, on top of the usual concerns in life and career. It's just the way it is. I read in an article by a reproductive endocrinologist that one thing he can say about infertility patients is that no doctor will ever find a more determined set of patients than those undergoing treatment to have a baby -- there is no patient more motivated, more willing and with more fight in them than people who want a child. This, according to him, is what makes them different from cancer patients. While some emotions may be the same (body is failing me, why me of all people, feels like I'm running out of time, money issues, etc), the reason to keep fighting among infertility patients is what makes them fight harder, longer.
So here's to fighting again, giving it another shot. May this be it for us. Please!
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